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someday... Gilmore Girls hit a little too close to home this evening. I probably cried through 80% of it. All I could think about was when my dad was in the hospital, having surgery to remove a blockage in his artery...that c one in your neck...and he had a 50% chance of making it. I remember sitting in the waiting room with my mom, completely scared that we were going to lose him...wondering where the heck the doctor was. He said they'd call us in the waiting room when they were done, and they never did. That was years ago..New years Eve...but it feels like yesterday. I was looking at him last night and thinking about how much he has changed over the last year. Even just the last month..he looks so small. He's losing a ton of weight. Lost 7 teeth last month, and I don't think he's really eating. He's so weak. He doesn't look well, though he made it thru this winter fairly unscathed. Unless i just don't know because I'm not living there this year. I walked in the door last night, and the first thing I noticed was the new alarm system. They had this huge panel by the door...the old one was very small. So I went in and asked him about it, and he told me all about it, including the medic alert necklace thing he now has for $10 more a month. If something ever happens to him, he can hold the button on it for 3 seconds, and they will send someone out. Which is good. Except he's got it on top of his dresser...at least he did last night. Which isn't good. Because if he has another stroke, there is no way he'll be able to stand to reach the darn thing. But at least he's thinking, I guess. So I'm watching Gilmore Girls, and I know that Richard is going to be okay, but it was still upsetting. Because I know that my time to deal with that will come, and most likely, because of the age of my father, and the state of his health, that time will come sooner than I'd like. And I'm not ready, though I don't suppose anyone ever is "ready," are they. So, I got a 1099 from the radio station for that trip to disneyland that I supposedly won but never received anything about. I got a form, I filled out the form, and faxed the form in. But after that...nothing. I wasn't going to worry about it, but when they sent me the tax form, I decided I'd better notify someone because I wasn't about to pay taxes on a prize that I never received. I emailed the address on the tax form, and they told me they'd contact the station. Today, there was a message for me on the answering machine from someone with the Disney vacations, who said that she was waiting for me to call her back. That's funny...I never received a first call. I checked the caller id, the we hadn't even received a call on the first line since the 28th..which was before I emailed the station. Of course I had to leave a voice mail, and no one returned the call. I'll have to try again tomorrow. *sigh* |